1, 2, or 3

Which number would you chose, given the option of a 1, 2, or 3. I am a little nerdy and mathematically analyzed what number and first thought three, but then reconsidered and ended up choosing 1. Little did I know what this was all going to entail.

After a long day of church, lunch, shopping and errands my wonderful husband said I am a bit peopled out and I will not go to the dinner tonight. I was totally fine and was SO excited that we live in Riverside to be able to go and participate at church and Scott would have the option to stay home. I left went got some gas and then got to church and told Sean about Scott's idea. Sean asked where Scott was and I told him home relaxing. Scott and I then began to text and then he said I am on my way. I was very shocked because when Scott needs people relaxing time, I have learned that it is really a need and not just a want. He was even able to come with Advil in hand to save Debs and Eileens headaches. He got there and chose one too.

We were sitting at our table wondering what our numbers meant, trying to figure out what dinner was going to be like and creating our own scenarios in our head. The dinner started and we were divided up into the numbers 1,2, and 3. I was so excited to be a one and told that I was going to only be able to beg, but I would not be able to steal. That always seems exciting to think about with dinner, right? I came to eat dinner not to beg, but I thought no worries I am a smooth talker and my husband is too we should be able to get what we want to. So we were told if we were a 1 or 2 to go outside and come back through the back door and we would get our food there.

Meanwhile, we were outside standing in line laughing, joking and my husband was being hysterically funny. We just laughed and were cracking up, someone jokingly commented that I encourage him in this behavior. I totally said, YEP!!! He cracks me up and I love it! Little, did I know how hard it was going to be, being a 1!

We went in line and I saw lemonade and was thirsty, but I was handed water. Hungry, ready for: fried chicken, cesar salad, rice and cake for dessert; BUT was only given A scoop of rice and a spoon. I thought this will not be that bad I can just "beg" for food. I went to my table and my husband swooped it on the seat next to me to sit next to Eileen because she had food! She had the fried chicken, cesar salad, rice and cake...she had a FULL plate. I thought I will let Scotty do all the talking because he is much better with words then me and then I can just get some food from him! He began by complementing Eileen on her lovely outfit, hair, and choice of food that she was going to eat. Eileen shyly laughed it off and then said you are going to have to try harder...so he did. He then thought for a moment and began to complement her on the amazing job that she had done with her daughter! Eileen uncomfortably said, I am sorry you can not have anything, I can not share my food with you! Toni then said, but here you can have a bean. I DID not want a bean! I wanted to have chicken I thought in my head! So dinner went on and I sat and started looking at the facts that were on the screen from Stop Hunger, and I was shocked at the facts that were placed in front of me. I decided that I would not beg for food anymore because I was not going to get my way and get chicken! Then it sank in!

This was why I was there, and why Scotty was there too! So that we could be made aware of the "food" that we have and that others do not have. We sat and finished our dinner and then engaged in conversations and questions that put way too much thought in mind all at once. The one comment that stuck out the most was from Sara...I would never want to tell my kids that I did not have any food for them and I was found heart broken at the reality of what so many moms tell their children each breakfast, lunch and dinner....I have no food for you to eat!

1- Composes of almost 60% of the world who make less than $960 a year, and that meal received a bowl, spoon, scoop of rice, and 1/2 glass of water.

2-Compose almost 25% of the world who make between $961-$9000 a year, and that meal received a plate, fork two scoops of rice, beans, and full glass of water.

3- composed of 15% of the world who make more than $9000 a year, and that meal was on a real dish, with real silverware and had two pieces of fried chicken, cesar salad, rice and dessert and their left overs went in the TRASH!

Sad to say almost everyday of my life I have been a 3!

We finished dinner and watched Hannah's Story and learned more of why we were there...that to blog about later :)

Umm...Seriously God ?

I have not blogged in what it seems like forever and am excited scared and almost in shock about the whirlwind God has brought both Scott and I through not only independently, but also together. I know I do not have blog followers, but I am compelled to write for Scott and I to remember....

Through the stations of the cross God convicted both of us that Angel Jeraldi that we sponsor through Compassion International is an actual child of ours. We provide for her financially and have committed to sponsoring her until we are no longer needed. Well I have moved three times since I have had her and then once we got married I have moved again twice and although we have diligently supported her financially, we have forgotten to support her in other ways too like writing her, reading her report cards, receiving her pictures and letters. We both after leaving thought wow, how bad have we been...she has turned into a "bill" to us, something that we pay for every month and forgot that she is "really" our child. So this week I am going to call Compassion, get current on my address and ask for an update on our little daughter.

So here I was thinking perfect God this is what you have for us...sigh of relief right...well APPARENTLY NOT...we both came to hope Sunday that two of the college grads at missio dei had planned thinking we are doing our part God, do not ask us to do anything more! Well God does not often listen to me or do as I want him to...and broke my heart through some of the statistics that were read through out the sermon. I was drawn and convicted of the passage in Deuteronomy, when Israel is told that WHEN they are going to be blessed that they also will have a responsibility to take care of orphans (which ever since I saw the movie Annie as a child, have ALWAYS had a soft spot in my heart), widows and aliens. Scott and I both left church with God laying the same thing on our hearts...get another child or family and sponsor them too...Assuring us both that HE will provide.

Why God did not stop there I am not too sure of right now, but my Scotty asks me if I would support him with a crazy idea. He wants to start a foundation to bring light to World Hunger through ice cream. The details of this will be another blog, but for sure one to come in the near future.

And we are not done yet! I planned on going to a church dinner on hunger tonight and Scott decided that he was pretty people drained and would not be coming, which I have learned is completely okay. Sean asked where Scott was tonight and I texted him and he totally had a tugging on his heart that he was to come to dinner...I was in pure shock when he told me he was on his way. We had a great dinner (again much longer blog on dinner later :) ) We watched a video called Hannah's story on an Orphanage in China. I was brought to tears at the reality that these sweet innocent children live in these conditions and thought...maybe we are suppose to adopt and not have kids of our own. Low and behold my husband and I are leaving and he calls me and says...hey I think that we are suppose to have kids through adoption and International adoption. I am needless to say in absolute shock, amazement, joy, thankfulness, and in anticipation to see where God takes the Rollins' in the near future.

Right now we are going to pray, dream and seek as to where God will lead us...Where you Lead us Lord WE will go!!!