sigh of relief

Well this last week of school was a little less smooth than I had hoped for. I read the wrong chapter, was overwhelmed with work, and had way too many commitments that I needed to follow through with all at once. See the problem is not necessarily school, its the fact that I said yes to several things before there was school. I had gone along in my merry life with out anything to really occupy my free time so I filled it up with lots of other things to do! The sad tale is that all of these things I love to do and have had a ton of fun doing them. I knew this day would come when I would start saying that simple little word no. I hate saying no because I love to be active and do things. If I tell you no it is because I have too many other things right now on my plate that I can not say no to. I am looking forward to being done with my master's and I have barely even started:( Yikes that almost sounds like bad news. AH WELL!!! We shall see, we shall see.

I am WOKEN UP!!! Cold Water style!

I thought that as I went back to school that I would ease my way into the program and that at the beginning the work would be less and that it would build as I progressed. Boy was I WRONG!!! I was quiet upset that I was wrong and almost dumbfounded and discouraged in being wrong. On night two I began to doubt as to whether or not this was the right decision for my life or if it was going to really be best for my family. Scott is the best support in my life and he always was there to pick me and dust me off then tell me that I CAN DO IT! The school work got finished after a long 15 hours of work this week. I then was off to Women of Faith. While I was there, I was awakened to the reality of my masters. I am truthfully afraid of failing. Most things in school I could BS my way through and be able to accomplish with little effort. Once I started and finished my credential I was pressed with the option of not failing because to continue in the program I needed to maintain a 3.0 average in all of my classes. With that extra pressure I finished the entire program with a 4.0 and now that I am in my masters the same pressure is on. I think that I will be able to achieve my goals and hopefully finish strong. I am about to go start on this week's homework. We shall hope that week 2 IS better than week 1!!! Side note Scott was amazing through it all!!!!

masters begin

I am going to try to journal and blog about my journey through my masters degree, so that I can be able to go back and remember my journey through earning my masters. I am thankful and grateful that I have a supportive husband who wants to make my dreams come true and support me in all of my crazy ambitions. My dream job would be to be a stay at home mommy, work part-time as a high school math teacher, and teach as an adjunct professor teachers who are entering the teaching field. I love teaching, it is truthfully my gift and passion. I love to teach others math and watch their face light up in excitement when they understand the math. The hard part about teaching math is that there are very few professors with math or science backgrounds that teach credential classes. This was my case when I went through my credential, I did not have one teacher who taught anything other than history and english. Those two are pretty far away from mathematics.

I almost gave up the hope and dream that I was never going to be able to earn my masters degree, up until a month ago. I had the pleasure of participating in the pythagoras project over the summer and this project ignited my love of learning and math again!!! Providentially for me I received an email later the week of the project advertising a master's degree program online. I went to my dear Scotty excited as ever and he COMPLETELY supported my desire. So in a whirlwind of time I applied, sent my transcripts, was accepted and now I am about to embark on a journey expanding my education as an educator. I am so excited and am looking forward to all of the new things I am going to be learning that I will be able to apply to my classroom. PLEASE do not get me wrong among all of the excitement is fear, worry and anxiety over the changes that are going to come in my life. I am nervous about my time management abilities and the great balancing act that I will be having to do between: my relationship with God, marriage, family, job, youth group, and lastly school! YIKES...just writing it makes me nervous.

I finished orientation and learned that I will be on my computer and living and breathing school and working on it in almost EVERY FREE second I have in my life. I begin this journey with big eyes and big dreams awaiting to see where my Savior will take Scott and I...come along side with me and enjoy my journey.